“I see myself as an intelligent, sensitive human being, with the soul of a clown, which forces me to blow it at the most important moments.” – Jim Morrison

I’ve always felt that this quote by Jim Morrison aptly described me. 

I’m a pot-stirrer.  I’ve tried to fix this in times past, but I’m not even so sure it’s something that should be fixed.  Maybe that’s just who I am.  But I’ve noticed that, although I may take my faith very seriously, I’m able to laugh about a whole lot that other folks can’t really laugh at, and often times I’ll say things just to stir the pot, or point out something that I think is inconsistent.

But I end up blowing it, a lot of the time. At the moment, the most important moment, as Morrison says, I’ll end up saying something or cracking a joke which “forces me to blow it.”

Do I sabotage myself?  I’m not sure. 

But sometimes it makes me look like a hypocrite.

Take this Pat Robertson business.  I could care less about what Pat Robertson has to say about something.  But it’s everywhere I look.  And everyone’s so disgusted and pissed that he could even think that an earthquake could be the result of a judgment of God.

But then I think, wasn’t a worldwide food in Genesis a result of a judgment of God?  To think that earthly calamities are above God’s realm of communication is kind of like the first step on a long road of biblical denial. 

But anyway, I make strong claims, and then folks assume I agree with Pat Robertson.  But when I say that I don’t agree with him, they must assume that I agree with his “opponents” on the issue.

And I don’t agree with them either. 

I don’t know.

I think I’m just going to keep making statements to which people reply “I don’t get what your saying.”

And I’ll blow it.